it’s that moment…it’s like I’m in a wrinkle in time. I got the keys and have no idea where these hallways and doors lead, but it feels so free and I know it’s right. when the moment begins and doesnt end…..
today i woke up feeling beautiful and happy for no good reason, but it could be because it’s Friday and im feeling free and im living honestly and in the moment, regardless of the chaos each moment brings. you know, it could be that.
it could also be the new shampoo and deodorant tho, cause they smell a little like heaven and make me feel dreamier, too.
and my morning coffee might have something to do with it, just enough fuel in a half caff, but it started before the caffeine buzz.
on a day like today, any thought of you makes me heart expand and feel warmer and really…. joyful. you made me smile so much every time you’d call me a crazy dumbass and you somehow reminded me of my strength and who I really am. maybe that’s what it is.
and so today, even if just for the morning, i just really feel grateful for that goodness….of….myself….
i don’t know. I may have just described you as a dreamy, ethereal, heavenly caffeine buzz tho. i dont know what to say about that because it doesn’t really come close…. but… working with it regardless…
it would be more descriptive to add mounds of whipped cream to that cup except you see, i don’t let myself indulge in that anymore.
sometimes when I think of you, im so happy and it makes me float.
sometimes when I think of you, it makes me sad that you have to be gone.
sometimes it makes me laugh because I still can’t even take it …
and sometimes I cry, ….well…..
because because because because becauuuuuuse.
don’t even ask because why